It's been awhile since I have written anything and it takes me a minute to think of what to say. Life is pretty rough right now. I am having troubles with one of my children.
I am trying to get moved out of my apartment into the one on the ground floor so I don't fall down the stairs again. Some days I just want to sit down and cry because I am at a loss as to what to do. I love my children, all of them and you can't say that I love one child more than the other because I love each one differently. Sometimes when I am trying to make a point it doesn't come out that way and I look like I am the bad guy. I don't want to be the bad guy I just can't stand it anymore and I have to say something!
My friend wants me to pray for Heather so I'm asking you to pray for Heather too.
My mouth hurts from trigeminal neuralgia and my blood pressure is 152/105! This is not good! And of course all of this hurts because of the stress that I can't seem to get away from or solve! While you are praying for Heather, pray for me too I can hardly move my mouth, I chew on my tongue and don't even realize it until it is really sore. I hurt! I want to cry because of the problems with my child and I just hate it that things are the way they are but I don't know what to do!
Take care and good night!
Danni
Monday, March 30, 2009
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Life just doesn't seem fair sometimes. I am sick again, and it's not just the common cold. I manage to collect things that really put a damper on things. I knew I had vertigo but I thought that it just made me dizzy once in awhile. Not all day for over 24 hours! Thats crazy. I couldn't walk, I couldn't eat! I was dizzy, sick to my stomach and because I hadn't eaten my blood sugar was taking a nose dive. I couldn't force myself to eat. I finally got scared and called my Mom and asked her to come get me and take me to the ER.
After almost 3 1/2 hours in the waiting room I was about ready to go home. But, I decided to wait it out. I'm glad I did. I figured they were going to tell me that I needed to eat and there was nothing they could do for me. But, he didn't. He looked at me and said, I think I know what is wrong with you, follow my pen with your eyes. I couldn't do it. I had been watching Cops all afternoon and I figured that was why. He told me that it was a type of vertigo and that since I couldn't follow the pen something was off in my balance part of my brain and I would need a prescription to make it ok again. I told him that I already took enough prescriptions I didn't need another one. He assured me that he had looked over my list and it would be ok. I couldn't even really watch TV unless the room was dark.
He gave me a prescription to starte me off and gave me another prescription pill for the next morning. My daughter in law took me home and I just stayed with them because it was late and also because I was afraid to be alone. We talked for a long time and then I went to bed. It took me a few minutes to get to sleep but I slept until after 11:00 this morning. I shook my head, I never sleep that long without have to go to the bathroom. Maybe that is related too.
I feel better now. I am still having a hard time eating as much as usual. Maybe that is a good thing. I also have bronchitis, so that's not fun either but I have medication for that too. Take care, Danni
After almost 3 1/2 hours in the waiting room I was about ready to go home. But, I decided to wait it out. I'm glad I did. I figured they were going to tell me that I needed to eat and there was nothing they could do for me. But, he didn't. He looked at me and said, I think I know what is wrong with you, follow my pen with your eyes. I couldn't do it. I had been watching Cops all afternoon and I figured that was why. He told me that it was a type of vertigo and that since I couldn't follow the pen something was off in my balance part of my brain and I would need a prescription to make it ok again. I told him that I already took enough prescriptions I didn't need another one. He assured me that he had looked over my list and it would be ok. I couldn't even really watch TV unless the room was dark.
He gave me a prescription to starte me off and gave me another prescription pill for the next morning. My daughter in law took me home and I just stayed with them because it was late and also because I was afraid to be alone. We talked for a long time and then I went to bed. It took me a few minutes to get to sleep but I slept until after 11:00 this morning. I shook my head, I never sleep that long without have to go to the bathroom. Maybe that is related too.
I feel better now. I am still having a hard time eating as much as usual. Maybe that is a good thing. I also have bronchitis, so that's not fun either but I have medication for that too. Take care, Danni
Sunday, March 1, 2009
I am a mess today. I have been sick for about three days and have been trying to go about life as usual until monday rolls around and I can go to my regular doctor. Today I just couldn't do it. I am here on the couch kind of wishing that someone would come make me go to the ER. I can hardly breathe and my temperature hovers around 101. I try so hard not to complain or whine or be a bother to anyone. I have allot of stress in my life right now and I think that is part of my problem. I just want to find calm again.
I have moved and there are boxes everywhere. I can barely get down the hallway to the couch. I feel really frustrated and wish the house was in order, but it isn't. I am frustrated.
I have moved and there are boxes everywhere. I can barely get down the hallway to the couch. I feel really frustrated and wish the house was in order, but it isn't. I am frustrated.
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