When I finally stop struggling

When I finally stop struggling and let God be God!

It will come to pass that before they call, I will answer, and while they are speaking, I will hear. Isaiah 65:24

One of the things that drives me crazy the most is trying to figure out what God is going to do next. Now, I know that is not possible and my sane mind, understands that. Yet, a part of me still tries to figure out what God's next move is going to be. Kind of like trying to play chess with the grand master when I barely remember the moves.

I can see God sitting up there on the thrown smiling ruefully and shaking his head as he watches me try to analyze a situation and try to second-guess what He is doing. He is shaking his head and thinking to himself. "Danni, when you quit struggling, I am going to show you"!

God knows I am anal and He also knows I am a planner and a fixer. He made me that way! But, that doesn't mean I have a few lessons I need to learn on being GOD's planner, fixer and anal person! And letting God ultimately be in control!

I like order in my life. I like to try to keep things where I know where everything is and I know what is best. But, sometimes I just don't know and I have to let God handle things. I have to stop grabbing it all back and trying to fix it on my own. Until that day comes when God, in all of His sovereign glory, chooses to let me in on the secret I am just going to have to sit down, shut up, work on my patience....still! And just let God be God and manage and control what He has already given me to control.

I may not like it, but it is what is best for me.

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