I am a Martha...

I am a Martha ...
and I need to be a Mary

But Martha was distracted with all her preparations; and she came up {to Him} and said, "Lord, do You not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Then tell her to help me." But the Lord answered and said to her, "Martha, Martha, you are worried and bothered about so many things; Luke 10:40-41

Now that Passion Play is over and I have a bit more time on my hands I have a whole list of things I want to do. My house is a wreck and it's going to make me crazy until I get it in order again. I want to get some writing done and I want t get my brushes out and paint! But, I can't! I guess I am going to be forced to slow down a bit and quit rushing around so much.

I think I get busy, get ahead of myself and my feet go out from under me. Literally! Yup, I fell again. It makes me so upset when I fall but it forces me to back up, slow down and focus on what is most important. It's not my to-do list or things I need to do or places I need to go. It's sitting here quietly, spending time with God and really reflecting on Him. I can get so caught up in what I need to do.....that I forget what I need to do!

I have taken this afternoon and simply stayed quiet. Praying some, sleeping allot and reflecting on the week that has just passed. It is not about how good the costumes looked or how many lines were remembered on cue. It's about how many people were touched by Jesus and gave thier hearts to HIM! I am a Martha, God made me the way I am. Bossy, controlling, and completely anal about housework, details and making sure things get done in a timely manner. But, part of me is also a Mary. Trying to remember that sitting at the feet of Jesus needs to be done, even if I haven't fallen and sprained my knee in the process. Reminding myself that Martha and Mary both have their place in this world, and it's all about finding that balance between them!

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