and baby makes two...

I'm grandkid sitting tonight. My granddaughter lives and goes to school in the same town/school district that I live in. She gets off the bus literally on my door step. She has been in my house for years, since she was about seven months old. She knows the routine in my house and where everthing is. She knows that I keep popsicles in the freezer. All she has to do is ask for one and she can go get it herself. The only thing is she forgets to wipe the scissors off and they get sticky and I have to wash them.

That is what being at home is all about. It's about being comfortable in your space, knowing where things are and knowing what the rules are. She has been a big help to me since I got sick. She is only six years old, but she is smart. She'll tell me, "go ahead and take a nap Memaw". So I will lay down on the couch and watch tv with her. I might fall asleep for awhile and I might not. I know her programs, the ones she likes to watch. When any of the grandkids are here they get to watch whatever they want on tv and I usually watch it with them. I like their shows. It's important to know what the kids are watching on tv and know that its not something crazy.

It is sad that I have a hard time with the smaller grandkids. It will get better as time goes by and I should be able to have them here at the house more. I hate it that I have health problems. I wish I could be normal like the other my siblings. Well, I can't claim they are all normal LOL, but you know what I mean! I am starting to feel better and the baby is getting older. My stamina is getting stronger every day. Just ask my physical therapist. He agrees! I don't think I'll ever be able to live life like many people I know and like my brother and sister. Working an eight hour day just isn't in the cards for me. I have to work in 3-4 hours at a time. Then I have to rest. I don't know why I am like that, but I am. I think it is a combination of the Bipolar Disorder, the trigeminal neuralgia and a few ofther small problems that I have. I was always the sickly kid growing up!

I hate talking about then, I just want to feel better. Today I am tired and my hands are shocking and have a tremor to them. But, I am going to try to write for awhile anyway. That's what you have to do when life gets rough, you just keep pushing at it. Sooner or later you will get where you are going. And remember this! SMILE!

Danni