rose colored glasses

So you think you know how things are? Then one day a conversation just puts you over the edge!! You learn that he has no respect for you or your opinions. You thought he did, after all he calls you all the time right? But, then, well maybe! I'm afraid to say it! I think I've been used!

My work is very important to me. I've let it go for a long time and its time that stopped! It's so much a part of me. I tried to walk away but I can't.

I was with this man for almost nine years. We were never serious, but when you spend that much time with someone, well you begin to get attached, even though you were not supposed to! I thought that he supported what I do. So what is it really that I do. I write, and I post what I write on the internet. Through blogs and my website.

I should have seen it coming. I think in the back of my head I did see it coming. But, I didn't want to. I just rebuilt my website, so I asked him if he had looked at my website and he said no. I asked him why. He said that it appeared that I was trying to take the place of the doctors. No, that's not true, that is way far from true. I share my experience, strength and hope with others like me who are trying to learn a better way with this illness. It is called self help.

OK, now what is the positive thing here. What have I learned? I learned the truth and I won't be hanging out with this guy anymore and I learned it before I turned 45!! Now, thats important and positive right! Hey, it's nine months before I turn 45 so I learned it while I still had allot of 44 left in me!!! Men are jerks! Well, not all of them. Just the ones that are jerks! Don't throw things at me! Have a great life. Danni