Life Goes On!

I've been sick for a while now. I am trying really hard not to let it get to me. But, it does! I have an illness that is very painful. Something is pushing on the nerves that govern my face. I feel like I have typed this over and over. There are allot of people who really care for me and who have showed it over and over. And, I really appreciate them! But, there are those who don't seem to care at all. I went to dinner with one of the ones who really should care about me allot. But, it didn't feel like they cared at all! I felt invisible.

All day it has bothered me. I wanted to pick up the phone and yell at them! Scream, don't you see it? Don't you care that I hurt? But, I haven't! I know all of the words! I know that I should not feel this way and I know that in the end that would not solve the problem. Am I better than that? No, probably not! I just have more self control. It's not that I am a "better" person!

Should this person acknowledge that I hurt and be more attentive to it? Yeah probably! Do I have a hundred reasons why they don't? Yeah I could come up with a whole list of reasons why. It's not they don't care it is simpyly that they have interests in another areas that do not include me or my pain. So, am I going to let this eat at me until I am angry and upset! No, not at all. Yes, it bothers me. This person should be a little more concerned about me. This person is not the only one. but, they don't, none of them do! I have friends who do, this one just doesn't! I shrug my shoulders, so be it! Shake it off, and don't worry so much about it. I won't say don't worry about it at all, just don't worry about it! Forget about it! Move one! Life goes on!