Focus! Just Focus!

OK, just breathe. Breathe in, breathe out! It's all a matter of focus. Well not ALL, but a large part is the way you look at things. It can't change that I hurt, and it can't change the fact the I am tired, more like exhausted and that I cry at the drop of a hat. Or that the medication makes me sleep for hours. But, I am trying to keep a positive outlook and am hoping that it will help.

This is the woman that never cried. Not even if I smashed my finger with a hammer. I didn't cry! But now, now that I am facing an illness that will forever alter my life! Yeah, I cry! I cry allot!

I went to the physical therapist today. I really like him and I think it will be good for me to go to Physical Therapy and Occupational Therapy twice a week. It will keep me focused on something positive. Focused on pro-action and not sitting at home feeling sorry for myself. He said to me. "It doesn't matter what we call it, because we don't have a diagnosis yet. What matters is that we are focused on the problem, on what is actually happening and doing something about it"! I like that. The big problem is that I have falling issues. I fall down when I should be ok. I fell off the stairs. Part of the problem is that I hurt myself!

I am glad that I am finally doing something about this! I can't change what that MRI found! And, I can't change what is going on inside my body. But, I can change what my attitude is about it. "What does not destroy me makes me stronger. - Friedrich Nietzsche" I can't let this destroy me. I have always considered myself a strong woman. I guess we will find out just how strong I really am! Do you know what makes me strong? God for one, two I am stubborn, three I have truly great friends. Even if I just met those friends. I do have some pretty cool friends.

Danni